It is said or maybe romanticize that at first, substances were ingested to create a spiritual pathway, a bridge, with the invisible. Was that ever so ? In our realm, good intentions without an acute discernment can be just as bad and harmful as bad intentions and the perfect pavement for hell. The path has led me to sobriety and fasting which allowed me to create space to have an in-depth feedback about my experimentations, lessons and conclusions about the work with plant-medicine, sacraments and even most of food substances and the impact they have on consciousness, not only in the immediate but also long-term. And this impact goes way beyond what is commonly accepted. A great deal of denial and attachment towards the romanticization of personal experiments tends to be taking place.
I believe that anyone working with entheogenic plants should be taking the insights they receive with a pinch of salt and let time reveal if they belong to the organic field or if they were implemented in any artificial ways due to the high suggestibility state that participants find themselves in. Is it really a surprise to consider that some plants have been injected and merged with artificial intelligence in many more ways that what is commonly accepted ? Attempts are constantly made to corrupt what is organic in the first place and inject it with inverted principles. Even something considered harmless such as CBD oil is leaving an imprint on the person’s field, depending on how it has been grown, the quality of the seeds and who has been harvesting it. Nowadays there is also a lot of chances that crops are being genetically modified and then put into the circuit: it’s hard to differentiate a clean product from one that has been OGM. Any substance can be imprinted.
As long as we have no control over the crops, harvesting methods and preparation of products, we should always approach it with a lot of caution and discernment. Has their high vibration been altered in any ways, far from their original codes? Much of herbal medicine today is focused on biochemistry and isolating compounds in a reductionist and mechanical way, therefore missing the core identity of a plant and its organic signature as a whole. Moreover, one has to be aware of their own body signature so they can differentiate whenever a foreign element has been added to it. Sure, all experimentations can be used as a way to navigate the maze of the human mind and the control grids trying to gain further control over it. Too often, people rely on an external substance, from sacraments to psychedelics or even the most commonly accepted drugs (sugars and fermented sugars, alcohols, nicotine, caffeine or any other stimulating or sedating substance having an effect on the nervous system). Obviously, all these substances have an impact on the human consciousness and the human mind. Are they necessary to have a good time ? One can for sure be cursed during any cacao or blue lotus ceremony; entities can be conjured and channeled, no matter how innocent it might pretend to be on the surface level. It never truly is: no matter how good it looks on paper, it is rarely what it presents itself to be.
Working with Kambo medicine
I don’t think you need to be working with kambo frog medicine to heal. I think I was working obsessively with it due to beliefs that you need to suffer to heal. I don’t recall real purification efforts. You have to burn your own skin and go through an uncomfortable journey. Kambo and most of the time ayuahuesca brews may be used to be opening a dark portal within our own bodies.
Plant-medicine therapeutic methods which seed human consciousness
The majority of participants of such circles tends to believe what they have experienced. If the plant told them something, it must be true. Well, most of the times, it isn’t the case. Most of the times, it actually isn’t the plant who tells you anything but something disguising as it and using pre-installed softwares within the mind of the one experiencing the “medicine”.
As far as the setting goes, strangers are being reunited for an intense experience. It’s the same for people in a festival that reunites mainly strangers together for a experience. This often results in trauma-bonding relationships or being paired with new handlers. Because of the suggestive space, one might confuse what the plant is revealing to them or a thought injection or suggestion coming from anti-life forces creating and then abusing our mind programming. We all have inverted programming that is being used against us to engineer our lives and dim our power.
Plant-medicines may be a tool when fighting addictions of all sorts and to start the pilgrimage towards the spirit. They may be worked with as a first step to reclaim and start feeling what we are meant to feel, instead of what we were taught to feel. If anyone is working with plant medicines, it should be envisioned as an active process that goes way beyond time and space. All the suggestions need to be reviewed as time progresses. Yet, too often, the plant-medecine community is tainted by greed, black magick, predators and spiritual egos. Indigenous cultures tend to be romanticized. Many shamans are service to self oriented. Most of medicine plants have a shadow side, some have acknowledged trickster energies. Moreover, nowadays, the scene has been even more distorted with inexperienced people capitalizing without any sense of integrity. A higher level of collective delusion is being reached and it’s not to mention the spiritual shopping that is happening around these journeys through the invisible. Sometimes shamans do not know they are working in association with these entities, other times they know and they are conscious deceivers. Some make sure they are crashing the participants’ self-esteem so finding a way out towards healing become even more complicated. Curses may be placed into people’s field, leading to complications the next few years (police arrests, cursed orchestrated relationships, increase in paranormal activities).
Even when one thinks they connect to dimensions of love and light, how may they be sure that it is not a higher level of false light, using their own programming to deceive them? In addition, these communities have a strong hive-mind signature that creates a vulnerability to cult-type mentality in which self-doubt will be prevalent. The ego can feed off from an identification to a story line. Nevertheless, between what participants think they have experienced and the truth, there is a big gap. To me, it began to be evident that these practices were interfering with my integration process, were leaving me vulnerable to occult attacks and were creating complications and traps of agreement in my life.
Some lessons are learned the hard way and sometimes, there is no other way to gain the needed insights than to have to go through the experience in the tangible. I would abstain from plant medicine circles when and if someone is struggling with a lot of predators in their personal lives. These types of patterns led me to attend healing circles where I would be confronted with a guide, a shaman or another participant who will be a vector for predatorian energies to target me (different forms of abuse, heavy narcissism, implants, attachments). I have participated in many healing spaces that were not safely guarded, with or without plant medicines (a drumming circle can also be quite poorly led) and I have been in the presence of guides with major blind spots, leaving room for all kinds of interferences, with consequences during and after the ceremonies. Vigilance is essential despite the trendy call. For the last years, I have stopped working with psychedelics or entheogenics as the risks of exposure to the implementation of artificial timelines was clearly interfering with my efforts to break free from the programming that was installed in me.
Personal examples and their deceptive effects on my consciousness
I participated to Santo Daime ceremonies with the sacrament of ayahuesca in the setting of christian Portuguese songs. Because of the religious connexion, Santo Daime is tainted with dogma, guilt, shame and sin programming, savior programming and external authority programming. In some of these settings, we had to sit still for hours even when our backs could not take it any longer. I felt broken in two and also psychologically, spiritually, physically and mentally exhausted. I have seen women priding themselves and their egotic structures and creating separation with other women. I had to deal with lustful projections of other members. Looking back now a few years later, it appears way more clearly how all of this was used to artificially engineered relationships. A while after leaving a healing circle community of Santo Daime, I bumped into one of the guides. Within 10 minutes and my newly grown awareness, I would be clear on a lot of his programming and what was passed through during these celebrations. I realised I had walked a long way and felt grateful to be able to see clearer now. Early 2018, when I was in Brazil, I attended 2 desastrous ayahuesca circles where there was spiritual immaturity and irresponsibility taking place. Most of the people present were satisfied and sedated with their experiences. I stood alone and it made me doubt myself much; I still agreed to be part of the second ceremony. Yet, I came with a warrior mindset. Another time, it happened that I refused to drink because I felt unsafe in the setting. I was not brave enough to state overtly the reason of my choice but at least I did not join in an altered state of consciousness what was going on there though I stayed the night in the room as I did not have a car yet.
A few years ago, when I attended a 3-day transformative workshop with an organisation in Holland, the absence of men allowed women to develop and strengthen communion in a different type of container. Guides were not altering their consciousness. We were taken in a series of body and self work practices, by pairs, mirroring each other. There were moments of vulnerability, tenderness, communication and emotions. For me, these were exercises that assisted me to break out of my shell and getting used to being seen or heard and overall, I keep a better memory of the shared experiences. Nevertheless, many things were not aligned, including counter-transfer processes (projections) from guides to participants or weaknesses due to blind spots in the guiding team and amongst participants. Even organisations or teams trying to provide a safe container usually fail at doing so, and even so when they have an understanding about mind control.
During one of these journeys, I believed I was contacted by a deceased soul, someone my family knew and who had committed suicide. This led me to be in touch with his sister who, although she did not mean to, was crossing some of my boundaries with her projections (she tried to set me up on a date not understanding the reason why I am not looking for a relationship). Another journey helped me to revisit a situation in which another young woman was being scapegoated. I contacted her to discuss things through and we began a friendship. She visited me once at my place and we had a long walk around the river before heading to the train station. The chosen timing was perfect to create a strange synchronicity for me to bump into a childhood friend who was my boyfriend in primary school before the age of 11, my first romantic handler. Unfortunately, it is someone who is being used to trigger the programming that was installed in me. I have real compassion for the hard story he has been through. There was also some ups and downs in the way we were able to communicate because of some controlling and authoritarian parts of him that can be hard to cope with. Once I kept on working on dissolving layers of sacrifice programming I was able to set up some boundaries in how often I can meet him and that I preferred not to be calling on the phone (which is a tool I don’t really like). Later, I stopped seeing him.
A friend organizing Santo Daime ceremonies showed heavy matrix programming being active and a high degree of enmeshment with dark forces and energies (probably disguising as false light). Unfortunately, most of these ceremonies tie in to the new age movement and systems of beliefs (only a caricature of the greatness of pure light). Though she thinks she is doing great work with her attendance to ceremonies, she is heavily taplined and accessed and gives advices that are not elevating to the ones around us because she is corded to all these dark frequencies and beings that are manipulating her. She is therefore currently being used against others around her (she recommended me cursed food, sent a young woman my way who I had trouble placing boundaries with and who wrote with a lot of butterfly symbols and gave me zucchinis that were from the seeds of a controlled opposition french company and I did feel extremely depressed the day after eating them). It is so sad (only if we don’t consider the infinity of creation) since she has true abilities and is extremely gifted; she is only holding on to her spirit by a very fragile thread that might break this lifetime. In repetitions, betrayals were set by women thinking they were acting from a place of light while they were judgmental and shadow projecting, distorting the truth. Three were used negatively to create psychic torture or physical harm (an energetic arrow in my chest compressing my heart).
New age programming, the law of manifestation and anti-life settings
There are misconceptions around the power of manifestation. A lot of people are practicing black magick or unaligned magick without even being aware of it. The new age has been engineered to distort spiritual concepts. Nevertheless, it is true we are endless creators with our every minute attention. Our awareness is a currency that the powers that try to enslave us are trying to constantly steal away from us and use for their own creations in big or smalls events or gatherings and at every step of our every day journey, through things we engage with, which often ends up giving away our consent.
I attended plant-medicine circles where they deliberately chose to work in squaring the circle. This is a way black magic occult ritualists set the directions in an energetic space. This setting was one of the worse I encountered with greed and service to self being at the center of very corrupted beings. Once, I got up and left the room and they tried to force me back into the room, telling me « you have to do this ». I laughed and my will was strong. People were coming there to spend time with the other participants. One of the facilitators was cursing each participant while she was saging everyone. I believe someone like Amma would also place a curse each time she is hugging participants who come to meet her in adoration, thus giving their consent for anti-life principles to be placed in their field. In addition, I have seen so-called guides looking at their phones (not in airplane mode) during a ceremony. They were pretending to be there to help but when I caught their attention on something that was really off, I could clearly see it was just a façade of pretension. Ceremonies are used to imprint and implant the consciousness of the attendants reunited in one room with their processes. One of these shamans was singing a butterfly song and it’s only years later that I would understand the link to MK ultra “butterfly people will you come to me now…“. She was wearing leopard clothes and was clearly meant to keep me in the programs. It was there that an engineered friendship started for me that lasted 7 years and led to a lot more trauma. Oh, and this dutch shaman appeared on my Facebook feed.
Benefits, channeling mudras and extra homework
Many of these experiences have been initiations for me. I spoke up in front of a group, which I was terrified to do. I received the supportive energy of a group. I felt hostility sometimes and psychic attacks too. I learned to navigate all of this. I had unforgettable moments shared with others (I remember one participant claiming a big “no” that remained engraved in me, as if it was spoken for the ones who had not found the strength yet to verbalize a boundary), I met people who became friends. I learned to be more attentive to peripheric vision, I learned to manage better my clairperceptions. Many tricks and traps were installed and implemented too. Moreover, I had to learn for myself about the process of integration. I also learned that growth comes with decisions to take and actions to put into place and a modification of the entourage around us. Only bonds seated in truth will survive, the rest will dissolve as the programming it was rooted on will be breaking down.
Early 2018, I stopped working with plant medicines, realising I had a hard time to find a guarded space anywhere. As I hadn’t found someone practicing with a high degree of quality service to others, I decided to take a different road. That is when I started to detox and fast with extraordinary results for my health, but not only my health – it is as if everything came together as I was not using food to bypass any longer. It also considerably started to speed up and deepen my deprogrammation journey. 2 years later, I journeyed several times on my own, only to realise that insights I had were using my pre-existing programming, guiding me away from activating my full potential, reinforcing trauma-bonding relationships or relationships based on my sacrifice programming – any relationship that would be used to handle time and energy. It is hard to distinguish between internal guidance and external suggestions when they do target programming. It’s because there is something in us that still answer these triggers that these mind games are able to operate. When the entry point is dismantled, there is no longer a hook or a grip.
When choosing to journey, it’s primordial to stay fully present and conscious at all times, starting from when the plant medicine starts to scan you. I was not one who hallucinated with entheogenic substances, but some entheogenic experiences did activate clairvoyant abilities that I am not able to access sober. If that clairvoyance helped me to perceive some things and connect the dots in personal relationships (seeing people overtaken by a dark shadow, showing in their face), it always came with a price to pay. I could also tune to hand mudras. It felt in many ways as if these signs were matrix code breakers and I could have set a method to be working with them. Later on, I understood I gave consent away for something to enter my field and that energy stayed with me several weeks were mudras would still come, as in a trance, wanting to express themselves spontaneously from my hands. It was a time when my consciousness was implanted in a healing center in Thailand. We are in a vulnerable state when we are placed in an induced state of wider consciousness through the use of external substances. I chose not to explore this path and to keep on working on cancelling contracts and given consent. I am grateful for all the insights and understandings I got from walking this path of experimentation, the traps of agreement I got myself into and the development of my psychic abilities and my reading of this reality. Nevertheless, the price to pay has become too much.
Final words
Anti-life interferences can induce loop thoughts, thought injections to self-harm, psychic attacks, set-ups of betrayal and treason. All of this can give extra-homework and complicate things even further. What appeared to be a blessing and a benediction in awareness at the time later revealed itself for its true colors: a trap of agreement to slow me down and for me to give part of my consent away, simulating a fake awakening journey. I sure have learned a lot from these experiences, I learned a lot about deception and how it targets the psychic realm. I realised it’s not even safe to work with my own self with these substances. Nevertheless, regardless of these experiences, I am involved in a deprogramming journey where everything becomes revealed sooner or later. I take these experiences as a lesson.
The entry points are based on pre-existing programming: lack of recognition, low self-esteem, sacrifice patterns, blind compassion. I am conscious it’s best not take any decision in a hurry from a reactive place, even if it feels like there is an heart activation. The programming becomes clearer with time. I am cautious to differentiate between a visceral urge to take actions and a grounded need to be taking measure in order to manifest a better future. There is no real positive impact if energy is focused in the wrong unconscious self-serving direction (as it is the case when someone is sacrificing for another, putting other people’s needs as more important as their own). I believe in the importance to free ourselves from any external resource and substance and this includes commonly accepted mind altering and mood altering substances such as artificial sugars, stimulants stealing energy from our adrenal glands, fats and numbing and obstructive food (cereals, rice, potatoes). It is about lighting one candle at the time in the subconscious and unconscious fields of the human mind, until the day the whole paveway is lit by candles and that all areas of darkness have been illuminated. Real catalyst are internal. It is very important to work on defining our own energetic borders and to work on becoming conscious when a foreign energy is interfering with our field. There are no shortcuts to personal growth and it is all within.
