In this day and age, the ageing process is a topic that says a lot about where we are in terms of spiritual development in our societies; it reveals how programmed and wounded our societies have become. The western world and now more internationally the whole world has been programmed by the deception of Hollywood and the entertainment industries for criterias of beauty that are unreachable, unrealistic and most of the time based on inverted values.
On television, the programming around Peter Pan (based on Pan, the insatiable god of lust) and Neverland (a world of wonder and eternal youth) pushed by Disney (with Captain Hook as a handler with an unseen hand from mind control programmer) is certainly not foreign to this heavy programming around ageing. This Disney-related programming suggests to victims to escape and dissociate from reality. But once you set a foot there, you can never leave. Dissociation is a trap from the work of embodiment, staying present, feeling it all. The seed of timelessness of existence is implanted making it harder to cope with the sign that time is passing.
I had never looked at anyone, at my parents, through the lense of ageing until I became aware of my own ageing process and this shame and self hatred programming started kicking. It was when I was at the lowest level of self-esteem in my life – I had burned the candles by 2 ends for a couple of years, being consumed by the codependent structure I have been growing within myself as a coping mechanism. The programming was activating a mechanical and impulsive reaction to take action into doing something about it, pursuing the next miracle products, going to beauty institutes. Subliminally, just as everyone, I had been exposed repetitively to celebrities and public figures who really aren’t about health but all about plastic criterias. I could see where this was all leading and it wasn’t a place I wanted to consciously pursue in my life. So I started to become able to observe and stop listening to the mecanical responses that were urging me in a certain direction. Certain states of programming are desperate and can be very dark but it gets easier with time and practice. Starting to regenerate on a cellular level has been helping to stand by a certain sense of empowerment. I have decided I have no time to waste feeling miserable, ugly or unworthy. The problem with programming is the inability to see the inherent beauty. I am far from having deprogrammed deeply engrammed associations of ideas and inverted values. It’s also something that is more inherently targeting the female aspects within us and that will be a bigger shameful and pervasive issue for women than it will be for men. Programming around aging is different for males.
Nevertheless, I am choosing to redefine my own aging process : for me, it is about improving, regenerating and recovering health. Detoxification is a good teacher, sometimes face and body do feel swollen, sometimes the skin is struggling. Sometimes it’s not glorious, other times it is bliss. And while layers of puffiness that were covering the real state of inflammed and obstructed bodies are peeled, beauty and health need to be redefined and so do our priorities. So many sacrifice health over beauty. Will we be learning to see our unalienable beauty, will we reestablish a real dialogue? The body is the one deciding how it is going to be, not the mind. Growing older in a healthy way it is about losing interest to scrutinize our face and look for the flaws. Our faces tell stories about the journey we have been on. They tell stories about the layers of consciousness that have been accessed, the battles we overcame, the programming embedded in our consciousness that we managed to dissolve. I hope we (the ones who are doing the work seriously and with sincere commitment) are slowly, collectively, building a timeline that has our own colors.
They were celebrating under the night sky.
In the early hours of the day, with the rising sun,
They were realising the lines on the skin on their faces.
Their children’s hearts had been lightening up the night.
They all know that beyond flesh,
There is something eternal that never ends.
This sparkle shines through innocence
In the presence of the infinity of the present moment.